To be perfectly honest I had a completely different post ready for today. I was going to recap my trail running adventures of this past weekend with Altra. However, as the week passed and I read more and more things on social media, this post was weighing heavier and heavier on my heart. This morning in the shower, why is it I do my best thinking in the shower, I knew I was going to change things up.
This weekend was filled with moments which Dani coined, "Stars like us" from those US Weekly pages...
I knew from reading articles and from watching Deena with her daughter over the weekend that this little girl was her world! I also knew that Deena has done amazing things since becoming a mom so I wanted to know how things changed for her if they did at all. She shared about her daughter being a hard baby and how she would walk and rock her for long periods of time to get her to sleep (A trick I know all too well since I logged many a miles on my treadmill with our babies in the Bjorn). She shared about how she takes days off when her daughter is sick and like everyone worries about her training but knows her place is with her daughter.
She sat down and started to cry because in her heart she had failed....She felt she had failed as a mom and failed as a runner. I don't think there was a mom in the room that didn't know exactly the feeling she was talking about. Here is this woman who holds the record for the only American woman to run a sub 2:20 marathon and not many days earlier had broken the master's record for the marathon felt like a failure....just like me.
Whether you are a mom that works out of the house...or has her own business...or is a say-at-home mom...you are not alone. We ALL feel like a failure from time to time. We ALL have moments when we slip away to the bathroom and cry. We ALL have those moments and you are NOT alone! Those words from Deena Kastor were exactly what I needed to hear and while I'm still processing them, I know that it will be alright! I may not be headed for Olympic medal greatness but I'm a mother runner just like Deena and things will be ok!