I should have known a post like this was coming....I could feel it coming on. It could have to do with the fact that the temps have spiked higher than 90 with what feels like 100% humidity....or that my hotel room has a full length mirror and I'm able to see myself from the waste down for the first time in 5 months....or I'm just bound to have a huge tank a$$ and legs during pregnancy. I apologize ahead of time knowing I will probably sound like I'm whining. I remember feeling this way during my last pregnancy though and didn't feel like I had the ability to talk about it...so lucky you!
Next week I reach my 6th month and while I feel so blessed by being able to to continue to run and workout still, I can't seem to keep from feeling horrible about the way that I look. I find myself trying to go unseen which is not an easy feat considering how big I am. I guess I thought this pregnancy was going to be different...that I wouldn't get so big, but seriously from my waste down I can help but shudder when I look. I am not one of those ladies who just gets a bump...or is able to wear her regular clothes well into her pregnancy...or can pull amazing runs out of her belt like she isn't even pregnant.
I'm big....but more than that I feel big...I'm fighting feelings I thought I had long since conquered and put behind me. I'm fighting wanting to "diet" knowing that it wouldn't be safe. I'm fighting these feelings not only for myself but also because I have a little pair of 3 year-old eyes watching me this time around. A pair of eyes who sees her mommy as strong....and a beautiful princess. Perhaps I should start using her mirror!!! At least I should start trying to find the fit girl I feel like in the mirror in front of me.
Thanks for letting me vent...I'm sure I'm not the first woman to feel huge while being pregnant....And like I said on Monday....my comeback is going to ROCK!!!
Vent away! That's what blogs are for right? I guarantee while you might not like the way you look/feel, that you look gorgeous! Nothing cuter than a baby belly!! Try not to worry about too much about food, eat & enjoy but banish that diet word for now. Take care!!
ReplyDeleteThanks so much Kristen!! Word is out of the vocabulary!
DeleteKristen is right. You look gorgeous! And the fact that you have put in the time and effort to have such a healthy and fit pregnancy is something that you should be so proud of :)
ReplyDeleteThanks Jill!!!
DeleteOh Nancy no worries about that stuff, but of course it is okay to vent. You will be back better than ever after the baby. I remember those days, because I was the same way. I wasn't the tall, cute, pregnant lady, every place that I could gain weight I did and like you i took care of myself. Stay cool!
ReplyDeleteBe encouraged...you are doing amazing! Also, just noticed this was posted at 4am -- yikes! :)
ReplyDeleteThe fact that you are taking care of yourself and staying active is setting the best example for your daughter.
ReplyDeleteYou are certainly allowed to vent! Just know that you are taking great care of yourself and when the pregnancy is all done you will get beach to where you want safely! Stay cool, this hit will kill ya! HAve a great weekend Nancy.
ReplyDeleteNancy you look great. You are strong women, I have watched you burn up that track at running group. I'm in awe. You are doing a great job keeping yourself and you baby healthy and being a wonderful example to you daughter. By the way I don't think your as big as you think you are. I think your a beautiful pregnant lady :)
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i've never been pregnant so in noooo way can i relate. but i did just watch pregnant in heels so clearly I should be able to comment yes? :)
ReplyDeleteShe had a woman feeling very much the same and I think what consistently brought her back was hearing the heart beat and having those moments of cherishing this journey of pregnancy rather than thinking forward or back about her body.
It's so hard to lose control of your body and the things you've worked so hard for. It's a hard lesson to appreciate the amazing things that your body is doing right now. You'll get through this and get your body back *and* have an amazing little person in your life.
ReplyDeleteYou'll get there.
That's what we are here for....I was the same way with both my pregnancies. You will bounce right back! :)
ReplyDeleteThink not only of the little one's eyes watching you, but also of the little one inside you... he/she is so worth it! Soon(I know it's a relative term when the temps get hot and summer drags by) those little eyes will be loving you from the outside as well. You are a strong, beautiful momma ... you can do this!
ReplyDeleteHugs my friend!!! I know it is so hard to be pregnant in the summer - I was so swollen and BIG with all three of my boys. You are beautiful though and you are healthy and strong - that is what matters the most. You are growing a life inside of you and still managing to run and be a mom and all that you do. Your body is amazing. :) In a few months it will be cooler and you will have that baby in your arms and you will be back to your normal self in no time. Hugs!!!!
ReplyDeleteYou're doing a great job! You are carrying a soul that will live forever and that is significant work! Keep tracking-- only 3 more months!!!
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I always joked that with both of my boys my butt was trying to grow faster than my stomach. I seriously gained weight all over, despite eating mostly healthy and working out a fair amount. Just keep up what you are doing and grow that healthy baby. You'll have plenty of time to get back to normal afterwards.
ReplyDeleteVent away! Having just seen you two short weeks ago I can assure you that you look fabulous! And you're doing such a great job with your running! Hang in there :)
ReplyDeleteI'm sure that you look amazing. It is so hard seeing our bodies change and we can't control it - but think about the incredible work it is doing! In addition, you are so active. You are doing great!!
ReplyDeleteThe last picture you posted, I thought you looked so cute! Sorry you are feeling that way, but you are a strong healthy beautiful woman and you are a great example for your daughter. You are doing everything to ensure a healthy baby and that is what matters:) I do understand though, been there.
ReplyDeleteugh, you poor thing...vent away! We are our own worst critic and I'm sure you are looking fabulous, despite how you're feeling! Hang in there and know that you set an amazing example and are part of my daily motivation, seriously!!!
ReplyDeleteFeel free to vent anytime you'd like! I haven't been pregnant before so I can't relate but I hear time and again how hard it is to be pregnant in the summer. You are amazing for doing all that you do and setting a stellar example for everyone around you!
ReplyDeleteI think we all have those days. Feel free to let it out! I am sure you look beautiful, but of course I know that some days it's hard to convince yourself. I hope that you are feeling happy and great today!
ReplyDeleteYour comeback will absolutely rock! You look great mama!
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