Back-to-School...A Teacher's View

All over the social media you see images of moms celebrating their children going back to school.  Whether it is because they are getting back their freedom for a few hours or they are not having to do the child care juggle any more, moms are happy to see their kids return to school.

It looks a little different in my house....more like this...

Don't get me wrong, I love the summer for all things beachy and fun.  Also I honestly do love my job.  I know it is rare to find something you love to do, and teaching is that for me...minus all the paperwork!  However, it is what the school year means for my girls that makes me not want to go back...that is putting a pit in my stomach as the calendar days tick away.

The school year for my girls means they have to remember to share their mom....my girls are 100% my loves but during the school year they share me with the 80 other students I have...who I try to find the ways that make them unique...who I try to push and help them reach their potential I can see inside them...who's burdens I take home with me no matter how hard I try!

The school year means that my girls have to share me with other teachers...as a professional development provider also in my district, I spend Monday nights helping teachers find the unique ways to reach their second language learners inside their classroom.  It also means that I am prepping and planning during the week.  As much as I try to keep this to the school building...it is hard.

I would say for me the fact that my girls need to share me during the school year is where my pit is coming from.  Before having my own kids I would mourn the end of the summer but look forward to pouring myself into my class.  Now I want to pour myself into my kids....but also be a good teacher.  It's a dance that I will continue to try to perfect as the years go by.  Until then I will continue to soak in these last days of summer with these two loves not having to share!